the chameleon girl

and now I realize that I don’t want to go to be surrounded in college by a bunch of spoiled brats.

I went to a public school where everyone was down to earth and cool, and now I go to a really good private school, but the people are just rude. They are the most exclusive people I have ever met. They usually walk by me without saying something like, oh I don’t know, “hi”. Yeah, march by me with your long champs, fake riding boots, and straight hair, bitches. And guys, who the fuck sort of guys wear Sperrys and UGGs? 

Yes, people, the guys ALL wear UGGs and vests.

My two good friends there are amazing though and I love the school, but not the snobs who walk around campus and think they are the shit.

Because they’re not.

http://journals.english.ucsb.edu/index.php/Emergence/article/view/8/57

:(

This morning I woke up and I received some of the best presents anyone could ever get. I got Uggs, an iPhone, Northpark Mall Gold, etc. 

And yet I don’t feel very thankful. over the years I’ve gotten almost everything I’ve ever wanted, but gradually each time I get something that anyone would want, I don’t care as much. I don’t know whether its because I’m not materialistic, or because I AM materialistic, but I’m so used to getting things that I don’t value them anymore. I hate to think that I’m the second one.

And then there’s my sister, who exclaimed loudly so that I could hear, “Oh mommy! You got ME an iPhone??? Oh really, you shouldn’t have!” (<— legit)

The second she saw that I got one also she was pissed.

I didn’t know I got an iPhone until after she was all giddy and happy that “only” SHE got one. I wasn’t mad at all when I thought that my sister got an iPhone and I didn’t.

So I have no idea what I am, but thinking about those kids this morning who didn’t wake up to any presents makes me thankful. 

Merry Christmas,

Megan

So there’s this boy who has been, as he puts it, “in love” with me for 5 months now.

He’s kind of weird. A little too into me. not popular. somewhat obsessed.

And yet, last night he and I were hanging w my girlfriends and they were flirting with him. I felt so jealous. I’m not really a jealous person. 

I think I’ve fallen for him, in all his imperfections. I don’t know what to do.